10-4: An Open Letter to My Psyche

(well, you're all up in here, so I may as well address each of you separately):

Dear White American Women (WAW): No, I am not having a Britney Spears moment, and I am truly disappointed that you would so carelessly and callously relegate/demote/judge behavior that is foreign to you as …as…(hold please for google search -): psychotic? indicative of an instability of some sort? Mental Breakdown Material? Just Downright Cray?!?  Do tell…in all ur great wizdumb.  And keep in mind: YOU are mainstream media’s target market.  YOU are America’s darling consumer, buying lots and lots of shit you don’t need in order to fit into a society controlled by men who don’t like you.  Some of them even hate you. 

Dear White American Men (WAM): Um, yeah.  Put the gun down.  This is NOT a call for some sort of revolutionary uprising, no G.I. Jane moment, nor am I operating as “collateral damage” in someone’s holy war.  Once the hair grows back, you’ll see I’m still that “exotic b#tch u wouldn’t mind “getting to know” a little better.   Now see though,  what I heard is that the 'darker the berry the sweeter the juice,' so if you are looking for the genuine “experience” you best keep lookin’ Mister.

Dear Black American Man (BAM): As much compassion as I hold in my heart for you over your (temporarily inhibited) inability to sexualize me on a dime, you have got to believe me when I say that I truly, truly did NOT shave my head as a passive-aggressive way to take away everything from you that you hold sacred about ‘your women’ and everything you feel you have a right to demand from us, as ‘your women’ in order to make you feel ‘like a man.’   I mean, black American men were the first men in my youth who expressed any interest in me as a sexual being – I can’t hate now, can i?!?

Dear Black American Women (BAW): Yes, I get it.  I am no longer a threat.  Carry on. 

Dear African Men (AM): Thank you for always finding me attractive, regardless of how I chose to wear my hair.  You get it: bald is a legit hairstyle!  Unfortunately, there are some “things” about the way I have been treated by African men, things that have stacked the cards against any of you EVER penetrating my misogynistic-sensi-shield.  So sorry.  

Dear African Women (AWWWWWWWW): Mommy! Where have you been all my life?  I love you.  I miss you. Don’t leave me.

xoxoxo

- ritz

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